Disneyland...

Taking a two month old to Disneyland was not peaches and cream like I thought it would be. She didn't want to be in her bucket, my arms, or in the sun. And to top it all off, she was insatiably hungry. Shock, I know. So we decided to test out the daycare lady the following day so that mommy could attempt to enjoy her 2 year old niece's reaction to California Adventure. Well worth it.

But, by the end of the day, I missed my Juney. Every baby I saw snuggled against their mommies made me crave the smell of her (not to mention, triggered the pleasant lactation let-down).

Well have to try it again when she is a few years older.

Sugar, Spice and Everything Nice...

Why does the sweet smell of pink baby sunscreen and milk make me want to eat my baby?

So sad...

Today my Juney got her first set of shots. I think it was worse for me then it was for her. First they gave her the oral vaccine and then they headed towards her chunky thighs. She got 3 shots!! She made the saddest little "mama, I'm in pain" cries. It broke my heart.

The nurse was talking sweetly to her... telling her she should feel lucky because other babies aren't so lucky to get vaccinated. Juney gave her the stink-eye.

I already told Mark that I'm tagging out for the next appointment. I can't stand to see her go through that again (at least not for a while).

And... it made me feel like a mom.

It's just so easy...

I've started a new routine which I'm sure would be scolded by many baby books.

In the early mornings when my Juney stirs in her room, I quietly get up, change her diaper and then bring her into bed with us. She quietly (if you know my baby, you know that is a dirty, dirty lie) eats and then falls asleep snuggling her burp cloth. I love the intimacy of having her pressed so closely against me cooing softly in her sleep.

When I woke up this morning sandwiched between my sexy husband and my baby girl, and realized that my 13 pound baby was taking up more than half the bed, I thought of one of my favorite songs.


The telephone is singing
Ringing it's too early
Don't pick it up
We don't need to we got everything
We need right here
And everything we need is enough
Just so easy
When the whole world fits inside of your arms
Don't really need to pay attention to the alarm
Wake up slow, yeah wake up slow

First time's a charm....

Exactly 7 weeks ago today I was sitting in a hospital room thinking to myself, "I'm a mom...now what?" Even though I had planned to get pregnant, got pregnant way too easy, carried a baby in my belly for 9 months, and then gave birth to a baby, I still couldn't believe the baby was mine.

It took me almost 4 weeks to stop looking at her and saying, "who's baby is that?" I constantly wondered when the feeling was going to sink in that she was mine and that I was a mom.

I remember when my sister started taking my niece to daycare and a little girl asked her, "Are you Jenoma's mommy?" and my sister finally realized she really was a mom. I'm still waiting for that moment.